God Can Make This Season Produce Again

FRUITFUL FRIDAY — December 19, 2025

“What felt like loss can become fruit in God’s hands.”

Beautiful woman… I’m not writing this from a place of “I figured it out.”
I’m writing this from a place of I had to fight to keep believing.

Because this year… whew.
There were moments I wanted to quit—not just one thing, but everything.
The vision. The ministry. The serving. The building. The “being strong.”
There were days I felt like I was carrying responsibility with one hand and my own heartbreak with the other—and nobody could see the weight because I still showed up.

And if that’s been your story too, I want you to know something:

God sees the version of you that kept going while you were breaking.
And He is not going to waste what you survived.

Carrying Purpose While Bleeding

Let me explain what that pain really feels like, because it’s not talked about enough.

Carrying purpose while bleeding is when God still calls you, but your heart still aches.
It’s when you’re still leading, still praying, still pouring into people… but inside you’re whispering, “Lord, I’m tired of being the strong one.”

It’s a different kind of pain because it’s not just physical exhaustion—
It’s spiritual fatigue. Emotional bruising. Mental overload.

It feels like:

Serving with a smile while your chest is tight.
Encouraging other women while you’re trying not to cry in private.
Being faithful when your feelings are screaming, “What’s the point?”
Watching God use you… while you still feel wounded.
Being proud of your growth and still grieving what it cost you.

It’s the pain of being called and crushed at the same time.
It’s the ache of knowing God has a plan, but feeling like the process is taking too much from you.

And yet… the truth is:
Sometimes purpose doesn’t come with applause.
Sometimes it comes with pressure.

When You’ve Been Building, Healing, Serving, and Trying… and Life Still Keeps Taking

This is the part that can mess with your faith if you don’t say it out loud.

Because it’s one thing to go through pain when you’re not trying.
But it’s a whole different battle when you’ve been doing your part:

You’ve been healing.
You’ve been praying.
You’ve been staying sober.
You’ve been setting boundaries.
You’ve been doing therapy.
You’ve been showing up for God.
You’ve been trying to love people right, do life right, respond right…

…and it still feels like life keeps taking.

That messes with you emotionally.

It can make you feel:

Confused: “God… am I doing something wrong?”
Discouraged: “How much longer do I have to hold on?”
Resentful (and you feel guilty for it): “Why do I always have to be the one who sacrifices?”
Numb: because crying feels like it takes too much energy.
Triggered: because when life keeps taking, it awakens old survival patterns—old cravings, old anger, old shutdown, old “I’m done with people.”

And the most painful emotion of all is this:
Feeling like you’re pouring out and not being poured back into.

Beautiful woman, that can make you want to detach from everything—your calling, your community, even God—because disappointment has a way of whispering, “It’s safer not to care.”

But listen… detaching isn’t always rebellion.
Sometimes detaching is a bruised heart trying to protect itself.

Fruit Comes From Staying Connected When Everything in You Wants to Detach

And here’s where Fruitful Friday gets real.

Because fruit doesn’t come from talent.
Fruit doesn’t come from hustle.
Fruit doesn’t come from perfection.

Fruit comes from staying connected to the Source when everything in you wants to unplug.

That moment looks like:

You pray, not because you feel strong, but because you refuse to give up.
You worship through tears because silence feels like surrendering to despair.
You open your Bible and reread the same verse because your faith feels fragile.
You choose obedience while your emotions are begging you to isolate.
You keep showing up to healing even when progress feels slow.

Staying connected feels like holding on with tired hands and saying:
“Jesus, I don’t have a speech today. I don’t have energy today.
But I’m not letting go of You.”

And that right there?
That is the root of fruit.

God’s Promises for the Woman Who Feels Like She Lost Too Much

Because if I’m being honest… there were moments I felt like this year cost me.
Cost me emotionally.
Cost me mentally.
Cost me relationally.

But the promises of God kept meeting me in the middle of my exhaustion.

Scripture (NLT)

“The Lord says, ‘I will give you back what you lost…’” — Joel 2:25

That verse isn’t just comforting—it’s confrontational.
It confronts the lie that says, “It’s too late.”
It confronts the fear that says, “You lost too much time.”
It confronts the grief that says, “You’ll never get that part of you back.”

God says, “I will restore.”

Another Promise (NLT)

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished…” — Philippians 1:6

So if you’re still in the process, you’re not failing.
You’re being formed.

And this one… for the tired woman (NLT)

“Let us not become tired of doing good… at just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.” — Galatians 6:9

Not if you do everything perfect.
Not if you never cry.
Not if you never struggle.

If you don’t give up.

This Is Personal: Maybe That’s Your Story Too

To my woman in Encouraging Her Resilience—
You may have done the hardest thing already: you survived.
You got up when addiction tried to take you out.
You stayed when trauma tried to shut you down.
You kept choosing God when your flesh wanted numbness.

And to my woman in Becoming Her—
You may be healing, growing, learning, transforming…
yet still battling silent heaviness and hidden grief.
Because becoming her is beautiful, but it’s also painful—
because you’re shedding who you were to survive.

And sometimes that shedding feels like loss before it feels like freedom.

But hear me: God can make this season produce again.
Even if it’s been ugly. Even if it’s been hard. Even if you’ve been tired.

Fruitful Friday Truth

What if God is not punishing you…
What if He’s preparing you?

What if the pressure is not proof you’re failing…
What if it’s proof you’re being trusted?

What if the pruning isn’t rejection…
What if it’s protection?

Because the fruit you’re praying for won’t grow in the soil of old survival.
God is pulling up roots that can’t feed your future.

Prayer (Vulnerable + Real)

Jesus, I’m tired.
Some days I feel like I’ve been carrying purpose while bleeding—and I don’t know how to explain that pain to anyone but You.
You’ve seen me build while breaking. Serve while empty. Try while hurting.
So today I’m asking You: restore me.
Restore my joy. Restore my strength. Restore my peace.
Turn what felt like loss into fruit—fruit that lasts.
And when everything in me wants to detach, hold me close.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Declaration

God is not done with me.
This year did not cancel my promise.
What I thought I lost, God will restore.
I will reap—because I will not give up.

Fruitful Friday Challenge

Write this down and be honest:

“The place I feel the most empty is ______.”
“The thing I’ve been tempted to detach from is ______.”
“Jesus, meet me here and make me fruitful again.”

Beautiful woman… as the year winds down, don’t let the enemy convince you that you’re ending empty.
God specializes in turning winters into harvests.